This is the blog of a 22 year old bisexual Marine. I post what I want to, when I want to. Single again. If there's anything else you want to know about me, feel free to drop an ask in the box.
This is a post full of me bitching so if you don’t care just move along. I’m on mobile or else I’d make it a ‘read more’ post.
Every so often I get a really shitty nap over lunch and get kinda existential crisis-y. What this does is sort of inhibit my normal mood and keep me from being as positive about things as I normally am.
Today, I pretty much told myself everything that I’ve known already and it brought down hard.
I don’t know my job, the one I’ve been doing for about 3 years, whatsoever except the Help Desk portion of it and that only because I’m a social person and know how to talk to people.
I’m a placeholder in my platoon. I don’t even do anything but show up to work and collect a paycheck every two weeks. I sat outside for half an hour past when I was supposed to and nobody gave half a mind to it. Nobody noticed.. Or even cared.
I’m financially stressed out because now I’m going to be behind on a bill or two, maybe affecting my credit, because I don’t have a gf anymore providing the second source of income that allowed us to barely scrape by.
I now have 500/month rent, car payment, car insurance, electricity, wifi, phone, and other expenses to worry about with my lease up in December and no roommate or other tenant coming to the rescue to take over.
I’m not even sure if I’m going to be able to reenlist in September or if I’m going to be pushed out in November because of one reason or another.
I have no clue what I’ll do afterwards if I’m not allowed to reenlist. Will I stay in the area and find a job to pay the remaining rent and bills? What job would that even be? Would I go home to New Jersey and live at home while trying to find a job and adjust to life after the military? Could I apply to classes and use my GI bill right away and get VA benefits and other things?
And on top of all that I have personal issues going on that I can’t talk to anyone about outside if a very short list of people, two of whom are actually involved.
So that’s my life right now and I’m really having some issues putting my normal ‘silver lining spin’ on it all like I usually do.
If you can pin me down in bed and hold my hand at dinner then you basically meet my standards
I need to have as much wild sex as possible so one day I can become an inappropriate old lady that blurts out things like “when I was your age I got a concussion after being bent over a desk” and then my family can be like “grandma please, you’re making easter dinner really uncomfortable” and it’ll be great
Anonymously (or not) message me (3) things you want to know about me.
the ceo of abercrombie and fitch has a lot of nerve saying that ugly people shouldn’t wear his clothes when he looks like an albino orc from the lord of the rings
Now is the time to reblog this.
I’ve been awaiting this picture.
<3 = I’m falling for you.
:) = I wanna cuddle up with you while watching movie.
;) = I like you a lot.
:( = You should talk to me more.
:D = You’re sexy/beautiful.
;O = I want to be best friends.
:P = I want you more than anything.
:K = Kiss me.
:| = You annoy me.
* = We need to make out!
<*3 = I want a relationship with you.
8D = I want to do sexual things with you.
And not a single one was out in my inbox this day